I don’t have all the answers, but I’m moving forward.
For a long time, I felt like I was just existing—going through the motions, making sure things got done, but not really feeling like I was building something real.
Lately, that’s changing. I don’t feel as lost as I once did. I don’t have everything figured out, but I can feel myself working toward something.
I’ve learned that confidence isn’t something you’re just born with—it grows when you make choices and stick with them. The more I commit to decisions, ideas, and changes in my life, the more I feel like I belong here.
Here’s what I’ve come to realize:
Fighting to Feel Worthy
For a long time, I’ve felt like I had to prove I was worthy—worthy of taking up space, worthy of being around. I still fight that feeling. But something is changing. I’ve started making decisions and sticking to them, and with each choice, I feel a little stronger.
I used to doubt myself constantly. Now, I catch myself committing instead of overthinking.
I’ve noticed that confidence isn’t something that just appears—it grows when I choose something and follow through. Even if I don’t have all the answers, just deciding and moving forward is better than standing still.
Structure vs. Freedom: Finding My Balance
I’ve always wanted structure—something steady, something that makes sense, something that keeps me from feeling like I’m floating in uncertainty. But I’ve also wanted freedom—the ability to explore, create, and do things on my own terms.
I’ve gone back and forth, wondering if I should find a job that feels stable or pursue my own thing and see where it takes me. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I need both. I need to feel secure, but I also need room to grow into something bigger than just a paycheck.
I don’t want to feel like I’m trapped in a job that doesn’t let me explore my creativity. At the same time, I want to be responsible, independent, and able to provide. I’m learning that figuring it out along the way is part of the process.
Why Sharing My Thoughts Matters
I’ve always had thoughts—big, deep, meaningful ones—but I’ve never really had a place to put them where they felt fully received. Now that I’m sharing more, I see how much talking through things helps me understand them better.
There’s something powerful about having a space where I can think out loud, process, and see my own ideas take shape. I’ve learned that when I speak (or write) my thoughts, they don’t just stay as scattered feelings—they become real things I can build on.
Changing the Way I See Myself
I used to think of myself as someone who was just trying to figure things out. Now, I realize I’m creating something. I don’t know exactly what yet, but I can feel that I’m moving toward something more intentional.
I’ve been more confident in the way I dress, the way I make decisions, and the way I approach things that used to scare me. I’ve even noticed that I don’t ask for permission to exist as much as I used to. I just do what feels right for me and trust that it’s enough.
Becoming is a journey, not a destination. I may not have all the answers, but I trust I’m on my way.
Where I’m Going from Here
For the first time in a long time, my future doesn’t feel dim. I don’t have a perfect map, but I have momentum. I know that each small decision—each thing I commit to—adds up to something bigger.
I don’t need to have all the answers right now. I just need to keep showing up, making choices, and trusting that I’m becoming the person I’m meant to be.
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